A Cosmic Fairy Tale

Once upon a time, eons ago, two luminous Beings shared their first life with each other.
There was only one life between them.
In cosmic reality, when two Beings share their lives with each other, it is for eternity.
One of these beings was me, Amayah.
Amayah was taken from her other to another cosmic place to be prepared to become a hybrid of some sorts, with many additions to herself, and be given a body to dwell on.
He, on the other hand, stayed behind and left.

Fast forward in time and Amayah was brought here, planet Earth, with many others to help create the magnetic field necessary to create life. Many came. including her lost other.
By now, she was not the same luminous Being as him, and when she was made human, so did he.
For many human lives they looked for each other, to have the same fate repeated over and over again, she always taken from him, he always left behind.

This lifetime, Amayah came here, with three purposes:
1. to become who she originally was, but in human form;
2. find her other and heal the broken first life she and him shared together;
3. to finish the work she was brought to this planet long time ago.

I became who I always was but fused with two remaining aspects of the old Amayah Being which was not Human and with the human body I now have.
I came to this Country in 1977 and started looking for him the following year. I had no idea who he was, where he was, his name, nothing.
Everyone I met throughout my life I knew was not him.
In 2008, I wrote down on a poster board all that I knew about him, added some pictures and hung it on my wall in my living room.
In 2012 I lost my house and the poster came down. I stopped searching as I believed he was never to be found.
Through many life circumstances, two years ago I came across someone that evoked a sweetness in me. Problem was, he lived 4,600 miles away and was unavailable.
Fast forward to three months ago and everything took a life of its own.
I can't go into more details right now, but suffice to say, I had to become who I am in Human form before him, so I could heal the first union and also the Human he had become.

And no, unlike most fairy tales, this one does not have a happy ending.
At least not yet.
The original first union has to complete itself in this realm, but it may not happen.
I am told he needs to accept who he is to be by my side when I am called to complete the work interrupted long ago on this planet.
It may not happen either, so I will need to complete my work alone, which I can do, but am told he will need to be with me at that time, as I cannot be alone then.

When the hype about twin flames or twin souls was popular in the 1980's, I didn't quite understand what it meant. Well, in a way we are "twin souls" as we were originally two equals that shared one life together and then were separated to end up in an endless search for each other.
This life, I am not taken away from him, but he does not want to share one life again with me.
I am comforted by the fact that I healed the brokenness of the original union, as well as many countless lifetimes here and thus this will not repeat itself, but the pain of not being able to have a life as one again in this realm is unbearable.

To be continued. 

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