Dreams that are not really dreams
As a child I had many premonition dreams that I couldn't understand nor did I have anybody I could share with to help me understand. Eventually, as I grew older, those dreams became rarer and were replaced with vivid dreams of places or events I was a part of.
One particular dream I remember to this day happened in the mid 80's, when I was getting more and more immersed in what was my natural way of being, energy, crystals, healing, the Spirit World.
I dreamt I was in a cave like place, with some kind of a mist swirling around. Against a wall there was a shelf laden with crystals and other objects.
A man and a woman appeared, a beautiful loving aura emanated from them and it felt to me they were there to teach me something. There were no words, but an interesting knowing between the three of us and everything flowed smoothly.
I felt at home, and I felt we (the three of us) have always interacted that way.
The knowledge they awoke in me in a cellular / energy level was guiding me forward and I felt different after that.
Another dream like experience happened in 1997. It was a Sunday afternoon, and I felt I needed to lay down for a while. I immediately fell asleep and had a vivid experience of being on a spaceship and some human looking beings where placing implants in me. They were very friendly and gentle and I wasn't afraid. When I woke up, I felt pain at the base of my skull where they purportedly placed an implant. At that time, i was very skeptical of all things having to do with spaceships and space people, abduction, etc. I called a friend of mine and the first thing that came out of my mouth was, "I was abducted by aliens". It surprised me and it surprised my friend that proceeded to dismiss the event as just a dream. Maybe, maybe not.
I had forgotten about this until today when I sat down to write this post. It came back naturally, as back in 2005 I was contacted by a gigantic spaceship hovering over my head, and other events succeeded that, making me believe that Non-Human Intelligent life exists outside this realm. So maybe they've been in touch with me since my NDE at age three and I just took it for granted. Maybe that ship I saw in 2005 was proof that my dream like experiences were not a dream after all.
The hardest lesson I had to learn was acceptance.
Acceptance that no matter how much I tried, I would never be like everyone else.
Acceptance that there is no place to hide from the world our eyes cannot see. Our physical walls and roofs give us a false sense of privacy and protection, but the so called invisible world is not stopped by these walls and roofs.
Acceptance that we are seen and known by other forms of life and that we interact with them and they interact with us at all times, consciously or not.
I was once told by a group of Star People, that there are no doors to close between us and them, there are only doors in our awareness, The thoughts that pop into our heads without asking, the sense of knowing, a feeling of deja vu, a gut feeling, a book that falls off a bookshelf opened on the page where the answer to your question is, these are just a few examples of communication with the unseen.
Acceptance that there is a field of invisible energy we are all in, us humans, the non-humans, this planet, this solar system, all in this galaxy and all other galaxies, in-between galaxies, reaching to infinity.
Acceptance that once our awareness of the existence of the field is awoken it cannot be turned off.
Acceptance that I am everything and everything is me and I cannot change that.
Acceptance that this is a hard commitment and that not everyone on this planet is ready to make the same commitment.
Acceptance that this makes me unable to be a part of any limiting belief group, such as religion, creed or dogma.
Acceptance that I came here for this many times and failed, having to try it again and again until it was possible.
Acceptance that this acceptance is inevitable and that is scary, because it makes me something others are not, and that hurts.
Because I always believed that behind the masks people wear, there is a beautiful, powerful, luminous Being waiting to manifest itself here on Earth. Instead, so many do not accept this and prefer the safety of their walls and roofs, to hide in the illusion they were told to live in.
I believe personality traits are formed in the womb. There have been studies done on this subject, so I won't go deep into it.
I was born an observer and that trait was amplified by my NDE when I was three years old. I always felt like an outsider looking into a strange world, observing people's strange behaviors, animals, plants, the elements.
Why do I call it a personality trait? Because it is how I was born as opposed to who I, the Non-Human part of me, is.
People's intentional acts to hurt and demean others shocked me and hurt me deeply. Cruelty against animals and the environment cause me to cry inconsolably. I never realized this until now at my old age. For the longest time I experienced this as a liability, making it very difficult to fit into work environments where interactions were fake and purposefully directed at maintaining the energy vortex created by the bosses.
It wasn't until I found a purpose for being an observer that I felt comfortable in my own skin.
In the mid 80's I learned Past-Life Regression Therapy, after having undergone it myself, and noticed how the method I used worked beautifully when I was completely present within the client's energy and just observed the flow. The same came into good use when I learned Swedish Massage in the early 90's and being an observer helped me see the body's dysfunctional posture.
Being an Observer is no longer a liability for me, but something I am. Observing is not just a visual activity, it's a sensorial experience, where all senses are active. It is also a kinestetic and psychic skill. and they all work together to transmit information.
The feeling of "knowing" without being able to explain how do I know it, is the by-product of being an Observer. It has always been how I navigate this realm.
Now I understand.
I am Amayah. Here you will find the story of an amazing being that became trapped in the cycle of incarnation on Earth. I hope that my experiences inspire you to discover your story.