This is a sensitive issue for me, as it is part of my core issue of wanting to be accepted as "normal" (ha, what is normal?) and not be shunned for being different or weird, as some labeled me in the past.
But, as I told the woman that insisted I should have a website and helped me set this one up, I'm not for everyone. She unfriended me when I was done creating this website because it was "too much information" for her to accept me as I am. Oh well...
Alright, here it goes.
I wrote a little about this in an older post, but I feel a need to be completely open so I, myself can accept it, as bizarre as it may be for most.
A Being showed up in my life a couple of years ago, claiming he was "my other". His communication skills make it difficult for him to explain things in my language, so I encourage him to speak in his own language and then I have it translated by a Being that inhabits my field. She is very helpful that way.
A few months ago, a group of Beings showed up, claiming I am like them and so is my "other". In other words, these beings are my original "family" of Light, eons ago.
As I explained somewhere else, these Beings do not reproduce, but some of them feel the need to have a companion, so they split in two, male and female, and become each other's forever.
This apparently is what happened to myself and my "other" and the need to return to one Being keeps the two together.
Well, many happenings later, I am now a Human and he is some other Being I cannot identify and he does not know how to explain who or what he is.
Apparently only Humans have this need to explain and compare things.

Well, the people like me have explained many things, as they seem to have no problem communicating in English, and they insist in staying here now, and also insist I must accept my other as apparently I am his other too.
I have gone through a parade of visitors from other realms and dimensions in the last 7 years and the aftermath has completely transformed me into a Being called Amayah living in a Human body.
I have always looked for my twin flame or significant other throughout my life, and about 12 years ago came to the realization that he or she was not here at this time.
I also believed that my significant other was human, as I of course, am of that species.
Never in my lifetime imagined that my other would be a Non-Human Being from a different realm in this Cosmos we are a part of.
I wanted to believe that I am not weird, or delusional, or whatever.
I wanted to have a "normal" life, get married, have a family, live the American dream.
Well, it didn't happen.
So here I am, in complete non acceptance of the reality I am in, because accepting it means I am not like everybody else.
What I am, who I am, what I have lived through, I don't like to talk about because i wanted so much to be accepted and not be seen as a freak.
I had three NDE's that I'm aware of. I have been opened to all realms of existence since I was 3 years old and it has always been my life. That in itself scared people away, some even told me only Jesus could do what I do, that I was delusional, and some even demanded that I taught them to do what I am capable of. The problem is, I'm still discovering what I am capable of doing.

So now I have an "other" that insists he wants to be with me, to be one with me, to mate with me (yes, we have mated a few times), and there lies the crux of my angst: I am Human, he is not. I cannot see him with my eyes, but his presence is very strong, and he is a sentient being. He cannot love like a Human, but he feels and can be loving, but mostly he wants to be with me and I don't.
Apparently, if I'm not delusional, and the whole story is true, he waited for me to return to him for millions of years, our time (outside of this realm time is irrelevant).
And no, he is not mistaken. I am his other and he is my other, but it was so long ago, my memory was completely erased while his remained intact.

I had an experience in 2016 where I was expanded out of this realm into infinitesimal particles and became the cosmos itself.
I was everything, everything was me.
That experience, although out of the ordinary, created an awareness of a reality the majority of Humans are incapable of understanding. A reality that is simple but cannot be described, or labeled, or scientifically categorized or dissected.
A reality that we are a part of and that can only be integrated to be transforming.
After that experience, all categories used to explain the unexplainable crumbled.
Everything just IS.
There is no magical thinking, or magical doing, there isn't a man on a throne up in the sky making things happen for you, there is no magical universe or angels, or archangels, there is only an energy field where energy forms dwell. Some of these forms are ethereal, some have a shape, some are denser and vibrate at a lower frequency.
I merged my energy luminous self with my physical vehicle and also merged consciously with life.
I am this planet and all life in it and this planet is me.
The awareness that I was different became a reality. It made it more difficult to continue the old social habits such as small talk and going along with the belief systems so prevalent in Humans.
I was always able to sense the lies and bullshit, but now I see it plain and clear. It saddens me that others cannot experience life without the baggage they carry.
It is very painful to see and be part of the current state of this planet. It is even more painful to know that I may not be here long enough to see a change for a more enlightened Human species and that, this being my last time here as a Human, I will leave behind a planet that is dying.

It's been a while since I posted here as my focus was elsewhere.
So many fleeting moments when I think, hah, I should write about this, but then the moment passes and I move on to something else.

Someone I knew posted on her social media wall about her illnesses, and how she became her illnesses, and nobody could help her, and so on. She embodied the victimization of her own creation and memories of my life with physical tribulations came flooding my awareness.
I learned from very early on not to depend on anyone else for anything.  Even when I was sick, I never thought of the illness, it was just another event I was going through and I couldn't wait to get well again.
To me, life is a never ending series of events, and I never allowed myself to be stopped by anything in my way. If I can't get through I find a way around it.

In the early 1980's, I worked in an office where most people smoked. Eventually, I had to take a three week leave of absence because the cigarette smoke made me ill. It affected my immune system, and some bizarre symptoms almost stopped me on my tracks. I didn't have family to take care of me, I had to work to pay rent, so I kept going the best I could.
In the late 1980's, I got a job in an area considered to be the most polluted area in Southern California, only I did not know it at the time.
My immune system crashed again, to the point where I could not eat anything but drink water.
Yes, I did go to doctors, but in those days I was just a big puzzle they were not able to solve, so I took my health issues in my own hands. I researched, I experimented and I forced myself to overcome and be healthy again. It took me two years, but I left those events behind me.
I did not become my problems, I did not identify with the physical pain, I did not solicit pity and I took care of myself to the best of my ability.

I also learned through experience that, unresolved emotional trauma if not released, takes up residence in the physical body, waiting for our attention. I learned to think wholistically, playing detective, intuitively listening to my body, my inner wisdom and my healing Guides.
Everything that ever happened to me since birth left an imprint in my energy field, my emotional field and my physical body. As  a matter of fact it happens constantly, on a daily basis. The difference is, I now pay attention and release what I'm holding on to before it becomes a debility or a disease.

Yes, there are those who are born with a compromised immune system or other non-conforming traits. Still, you are not your disability, or your disease.
The body you were born with adjusts to your life if you accept it and be thankful for its efforts to be your vehicle in this realm.