It's been a while since I posted here as my focus was elsewhere.
So many fleeting moments when I think, hah, I should write about this, but then the moment passes and I move on to something else.
Someone I knew posted on her social media wall about her illnesses, and how she became her illnesses, and nobody could help her, and so on. She embodied the victimization of her own creation and memories of my life with physical tribulations came flooding my awareness.
I learned from very early on not to depend on anyone else for anything. Even when I was sick, I never thought of the illness, it was just another event I was going through and I couldn't wait to get well again.
To me, life is a never ending series of events, and I never allowed myself to be stopped by anything in my way. If I can't get through I find a way around it.
In the early 1980's, I worked in an office where most people smoked. Eventually, I had to take a three week leave of absence because the cigarette smoke made me ill. It affected my immune system, and some bizarre symptoms almost stopped me on my tracks. I didn't have family to take care of me, I had to work to pay rent, so I kept going the best I could.
In the late 1980's, I got a job in an area considered to be the most polluted area in Southern California, only I did not know it at the time.
My immune system crashed again, to the point where I could not eat anything but drink water.
Yes, I did go to doctors, but in those days I was just a big puzzle they were not able to solve, so I took my health issues in my own hands. I researched, I experimented and I forced myself to overcome and be healthy again. It took me two years, but I left those events behind me.
I did not become my problems, I did not identify with the physical pain, I did not solicit pity and I took care of myself to the best of my ability.
I also learned through experience that, unresolved emotional trauma if not released, takes up residence in the physical body, waiting for our attention. I learned to think wholistically, playing detective, intuitively listening to my body, my inner wisdom and my healing Guides.
Everything that ever happened to me since birth left an imprint in my energy field, my emotional field and my physical body. As a matter of fact it happens constantly, on a daily basis. The difference is, I now pay attention and release what I'm holding on to before it becomes a debility or a disease.
Yes, there are those who are born with a compromised immune system or other non-conforming traits. Still, you are not your disability, or your disease.
The body you were born with adjusts to your life if you accept it and be thankful for its efforts to be your vehicle in this realm.
I am Amayah. Here you will find the story of an amazing being that became trapped in the cycle of incarnation on Earth. I hope that my experiences inspire you to discover your story.