Right vs. wrong
What is right and what is wrong is subjective to many variables, such as culture, beliefs, dogma, laws and personal experience.
In my case, as I went through a past-life regression session at the moment of my conception, the concept of wrong vs. right is very personal and deep rooted.
Wrong to me, is when my personal freedom and boundaries are infringed upon, when someone accuses me of something I did not do, to cover up his or her own doing, when someone makes me a target of their own hatred just because I exist on my own set of values and morals.
I grew up as a witness and object of discrimination by my own family and the locals in the Country I grew up in. My sense of injustice grew and grew until it became fits of rage, when I would trash things around the house because i could never hurt a living thing.
I am not apologizing for my fits of rage, I understand they were the only relief pressure valve when there was nothing else I could do. I couldn't stop my brother when he threw an open pair of scissors at me that missed my right eye by half an inch and embedded itself in the door jamb behind me.
No matter what he did, the insults, the machinations, the stealing and so on, my Mother's usual response was, "my baby wouldn't do that, stop lying."
The energy of my upbringing was definitely in my energy field, and everyone I came across reacted to it and reinforced it by making me a target of their whatever, discrimination, disdain, bullying, and so on.
Discrimination because i was a female, so I wasn't worth of their respect, disdain because I was "too sensitive" and would well up in tears at their negativity or disapproval of who I was, bullying because i was too white, a Jew, had teenage acne, my Mother was a single Mom, I didn't dress to par because my Mother would not allow me to fit in, too fat, you name it.
My sense of injustice was cultivated by my life story. It followed me at work as an Architect, it followed me as a Healer when people would dismiss the "miraculous" healing effects as "you couldn't have done that, it was probably the aspirin I took", or they would be afraid of telling anyone I took away their pain.
One woman actually became enraged that after a session, her back pain stemming from a work injury completely disappeared and she could not sue her employer anymore. She demanded I put the pain back (?????)
The other thing is, I have the innate sense of knowing when people are lying, pretending, or putting on a show to hide the truth. This makes it extremely difficult to be around people. I was born this way and it became a way of being since my NDE at three years old.
It is also extremely difficult to endure what the political circus has become in the last four years. To be honest, I can't stand it anymore. It's a waste of time, energy and purpose for a Human being to exist on this planet.
No point in elaborating on the purpose of being nowadays when the insanity has become so prevalent and pervasive, either one retreats into a cave to survive, or develop PTSD and start acting out, or join in the band wagon of outrage against the trespasses against decency and inner morals.
I love arts and healing sciences, but I should have become a Lawyer, to either prosecute the trespassers of decency and boundaries, or defend the wrongfully accused or victimized.
As an Architect, I became adept at knowing the building codes and negotiating with building officials. I took pride in not attacking the officials, but working with them for the best outcome, much to the dismay of some of my colleagues that had and have no regards for the law and try to weasel out of it through bribery or combativeness.
I stand alone in a sea of what to me is hurtful disrespect and disregard for all life, human and non-human. I spent twenty years of intense undoing of the damage I endured by being born into a family that was unloving, did not want me and saw me as damaged goods. I learned to move through layers and layers of beliefs, painful emotions and make peace with my core issues. I learned to put what I was made and became into good use, by helping others move through their pain and emerge an authentic Human, through their best efforts, but injustice I cannot stop.
I learned to work with high frequencies to undo the darkness generated by people and embedded in the land, but it seems to never end.
In the past three years, through constant interactions with Beings of many dimensions and places, including my beloved Guides, the message is constant. Much to my chagrin, the message is "the cleansing is coming, there is no other way".
Humans are in a path of self-destruction, and I feel helpless about it. Maybe this is the reason why I always felt and said that this is my last time here. I remember saying it when I was six years old.
I hope I live here long enough to see justice prevail. Justice to the planet and all the innocent lives being destroyed every day by the likes of politicians, criminals and haters.
Meantime, the Beings in my life tell me darkness will be eradicated and it needs to be brought into light for all to see and know what to do about it. It is slowly being dealt with, but, as I wrote above, it is extremely difficult for me to go through this.
Thanks for reading.
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I am Amayah. Here you will find the story of an amazing being that became trapped in the cycle of incarnation on Earth. I hope that my experiences inspire you to discover your story.