Seeing the forest for the trees

If I ever needed a word to describe myself, the word would be "observer".
The ability to quietly observe, allows me to connect with others without formulating explanations or judgements about the other. I allow the observation to become a knowing, and that knowing translates into images, and the images translate into verbal descriptions of what I see.
As a Healer, this is the way I am able to intuitively help others.
But wait, how about observing me?
One thing I've always believed is that until all that is troubling us gets translated into physical manifestations,, and only then, we are called to notice and "do" something about it.
The problem is, it takes years, if not a lifetime for a physical manifestation to show up as a disease or pain stemming from past traumas, and by then, the connection is difficult to see.
I noticed in the past few months that the right side of my body looked puffy and swollen, while the left side looked like it was "shrinking". Several visits to the Doctor and blood tests, found nothing abnormal.
The right thigh muscle is also extremely painful, which left the Doctor scratching his head.
Fast forward to last night, when I noticed that the skin on the left side of my face seems to be sagging, while the right one feels full.  I also noticed several months ago how my left eye was very weak and the right one was compensating for it.
Well, when M.D.'s throw the towel, I take control of the reigns and start the process of figuring out what  is happening. I asked one of the Beings close to me to help me figure out what is going on.
After a while, she told me this: " the right side is what you use most, and the left is being neglected."
Humm, seemed vague, but I thanked her and fell asleep.
This morning, she told me: "the right side does not want you to be Amayah, the left side wants you to love Amayah."
Bam! Amayah is the name I am called by all the Beings that come and go in my life. It's the name of my Essence, my true self. 
My family, then extended to just about the rest of my life, worked very hard to suppress my true self, who I am. I was subjected to all kinds of abuse, and that was the environment I grew up in.
What does that mean? It means, I learned to treat myself the way everybody else treated me. The right side of my body took over my family's job to abuse me and hate me, while the left side of my body hurt and cried for acceptance and love.

My physical body is now the graphic and visual display of my life story.

Unless I release the energy imprint and indoctrination on the right side of my body, the left side of the body will die, like a plant that is not watered and loved will wilt and die.

Wow... Quite an eye opener I shall say.

So here is my advice to you: observe the one that you are and notice what it is asking from you.
That is what I am doing now.

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