The Observer

I believe personality traits are formed in the womb. There have been studies done on this subject, so I won't go deep into it.
I was born an observer and that trait was amplified by my NDE when I was three years old. I always felt like an outsider looking into a strange world, observing people's strange behaviors, animals, plants, the elements.
Why do I call it a personality trait? Because it is how I was born as opposed to who I, the Non-Human part of me, is.
People's intentional acts to hurt and demean others shocked me and hurt me deeply. Cruelty against animals and the environment cause me to cry inconsolably.  I never realized this until now at my old age. For the longest time I experienced this as a liability, making it very difficult to fit into work environments where interactions were fake and purposefully directed at maintaining the energy vortex created by the bosses.
It wasn't until I found a purpose for being an observer that I felt comfortable in my own skin.
In the mid 80's I learned Past-Life Regression Therapy, after having undergone it myself, and noticed how the method I used worked beautifully when I was completely present within the client's energy and just observed the flow.  The same came into good use when I learned Swedish Massage in the early 90's and being an observer helped me see the body's dysfunctional posture.
Being an Observer is no longer a liability for me, but something I am. Observing is not just a visual activity, it's a sensorial experience, where all senses are active. It is also a kinestetic and psychic skill. and they all work together to transmit information.
The feeling of "knowing" without being able to explain how do I know it, is the by-product of being an Observer. It has always been how I navigate this realm.
Now I understand.

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